

we have lots of fun together...josh's new thing of the summer has been learning to ride a motorcycle. we are currantly unable to afford to buy him a bike, but my dad has graciously let josh borrow his first one. when he first began riding he would tell me how nervous he was and that my dad and brother would go so fast that he felt like he couldn't keep up. but now i must say that he is a very good rider. this i know from experience...saturday was the first time i rode with him. i have to say i was a little nervous, only b/c all the other times we talked about him taking me for a ride he said no. well, i was in for a surprise. at first he said that he would just take me around the block, but then i relaxed and began to enjoy it...i never got scared. he did a great job, and we ended up going for about 30 min until i got cold.
i was so relaxed, that after a while the helmet got heavy and began to give me a headache so i rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. while we were riding i kept thinking about how my trusting josh by getting on the back of the motorcylce was a lot like how i should trust him in our marriage. while we were riding i could not always see where we were going and the way things looked to me were different from reality and what josh saw. josh had a clear view of the road, where i had his big melon-head in my way. i know that God gives josh a clear view of how and where to lead me, but so many times b/c my view is different and often times skewed i argue and questionhim instead of trusting. i freak out b/c i see danger, but josh sees clearly b/c of God's grace and the special wisdom given to him.
i am so thankful that i had a moment of insanity and got on the back of that motorcycle, b/c in those 30 min God taught me how much fun it is to obey His command about trusting my husband even when things may not look right to me. and i was able to encourage josh in a special way by showing him that i trust him to take care of me, even though my actions don't always say that.